She moves her left hand to my hip while her right is still rubbing my clit.
I bring my right hand up to her shoulder while my left hand grabs hold of her right wrist. I wrench her hand from my jeans and shove her by the shoulder. She stumbles back looking up at me with angry brown eyes.

“What the fuck Spencer?” she growls out.

“What is wrong with you?” I ask trying to get my crying under control.

“What is wrong with me?” She pauses momentarily “You’re the one that just shoved me away when I was trying to get you off.”

“I said No!” I yell. My voice cracks to barely more than a whisper “You just tried to rape me Ash.”

“Don’t be stupid Spence, I wouldn’t do that.”

“No means no Ash. I said no. You should have stopped, but no, you just kept going.”

I turn and head towards the living room but she grabs my wrist to stop me.

“Don’t touch me.” I flinch as I yank my arm out of her grip.

“I’m sorry Spence. I didn’t hear you. You never say no so I wasn’t listening for it.”

She edges towards me but I take a step back. I don’t want her touching me right now because I know if she does, I will hit her.

“Don’t, I can’t be near you right now. I’ll take the twins and spend the night at my parent’s house.”

“No. You stay here, I’ll spend the night at a hotel.”

With that, she stalks past me into the living room. I follow her and watch as she says goodbye to the twins. Standing she slowly walks towards me, stopping a fair distance away. I can see a lone tear trickle down her cheek and I want so badly to reach out and wipe it away. But I can’t. She made it that way!

“I’m sorry.” she whispers and with that, walks away. I hear the front door close behind her.

I can’t believe it has come to this! I hope that now she will see that she has a problem, because if she doesn’t, I don’t think I can stay with her. In fact, I know I won’t. For the sake of the children, I won’t. I can’t.