Spencer let out a sigh and shrugged, “I don’t know,” she breathed out. “Call me crazy.”

“I’m not crazy,” Heather repeated. “I’ve never done anything like this. I’ve never been so violent before in my life, I just … hurt so badly. This isn’t me. I don’t obsess over someone like this.”

The blonde remained silent. She wasn’t sure what to say. There really was nothing she could say to the broken singer. She just listened.

“I had a feeling Ashley didn’t love me,” Heather whispered. “But to hear the words come from her mouth … cut me so deeply,” she cried. “You and Ashley make the perfect couple and I’m jealous admittedly. I can’t find one flaw in your relationship with her. I would pour through photos and videos of you two and … I saw something there that I realized I would never have… I never wanted to physically harm you though.”

“Why’d you have the switch blade then,” Spencer questioned confused.

Heather looked down and gripped at her wrists. Spencer got the message. She cleared her throat awkwardly and whispered, “You were going to-”

“I don’t know how to live with myself anymore,” Heather said.

“Heather,” Spencer sighed out placing her hand on the singer’s arm. “That’s never the answer to any problem. You shouldn’t have to resort to that.”

“What does it matter to you if I live or not,” the singer hissed.

“I care,” the blonde replied. “Heather listen to me … you need help.”

“I know,” Heather let out a strangled sob and buried her face in her hands. “What have I become,” she cried out painfully. “I feel like a monster.”

“You’re not,” Spencer scolded. “It’ll be okay.”

“I don’t want to be like this anymore,” Heather confessed. “I feel like I belong in a crazy house or something. I think this all started when I read about … your engagement to her. After that I lost it. I remember looking at the news article … just staring at it for hours in disbelief.”

“I’m sorry I said what I did earlier,” Spencer apologized. “I didn’t mean to come so harsh-”

“I deserved it,” Heather replied. “It was like a slap in the face actually. I needed that reality check I think more than ever.” She added with a sad smile.