So here I am, locked in my room,sitting on my bed, with the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. Who not only loves me, but is IN LOVE with me, and low and behold I feel the same way about her. So your thinking wow, what’s the problem, that has to be the most perfect situation ever, right? Oh boy you don’t know how far from perfect this is. I should only be thinking about her, kissing her, touching her, holding her, whispering how much I love herin the dark. But instead I’m thinking I might not have that much time left with her, because I may have actually killed the bastard that technically killed me years ago. Though I’m only dead in the emotional sense, he is dead dead, ya know like physicaly. I bet your wondering how I got myself into this mess. Sad part is…….so am I.



Flashback

Knock knock


Front door opening


“Paula, I believe she belongs to you.


“oh my god, spence? Yea Mrs summers, where did you find her?


“well she was sleeping on my front porch and when I went out to grab the morning paper I tripped over her foot.


“uh oh Mrs summers I’m so sorry about that, thank you for bringing her home safe.


“yea yea…this isn’t the first time this has happened ya know. You should put a bell on her or something.


“ill think about that paula said with a smug smile.”thanks again.


With that said paula brought spence into the house and stared at her with genuine concern. She did worry about her getting hurt or found by someone not as pleasant as Mrs summers,after all she was her only daughter and she loved her.


“mom this is happening more and more latley. Waking up in strange places with no idea how I got there is something that should happen later on in life and for differnt reasons…



Paula actually chuckled at the comment.


“well spence, is there anything you remember maybe dreaming about that may cause you to sleep walk.


“honestly mom, the dreams that I have all revolve around what grandpa did to me. I am normally trying to run away from him.


“spence, I don’t want to talk about this anymore.

Paula turns to leave the room only to be stopped dead in her tracks when spence yells


“But mom, he RAPED ME!


She turns back around to face her daughter with tears in her eyes.


“I know spence….I mean I don’t know…I’m just..spence, really not now okay? Sorry


“sorry, sorry mom, what exactly are you sorry for? That fact that you didn’t believe your innocent daughter or that you let him get away with it? You let him live his life like nothing happened, and I suffer every day knowing that he is still alive snd I’m dead inside.



Tears were flowing freely from both blondes now.


“oh spence…. he is my father, I just…I can’t Spencer….



Present


“ash what am I going to do? Tears were streaming down her face and she held on to Ashley for fear of collapsing under the weight of all that was happening to her.


“nothing…


“what do you mean nothing, ash I did it, I may not have been awake, but I actually DID it.


“Spencer, you don’t know for a fact that you did it, there are any number if reasons why you had what you think was oil on your hand and shirt.


Spencer looks at ash like she had a third eye.


“where else could I have possible gotten that ash?


“think about it spence, your grandfathers place was at least twenty minutes away by car, how could you have possibly gotten there with out anyone waking you up along the way?


“I don’t know ash, I wasn’t really thinking about that….I was just seeing what’s in front of me and not looking at the big picture I guess.


“see spence, you always ask me why I watch shows like csi, well this is why, to clear my girlfriend of a murder she could not have possible commit”. She says that with a light chuckle and Spencer just stares at her shaking her head…. about to explode over the fact that ash said girlfriend


“you are certifiable, you do know that?


“yes I do, but you love me for it.


“yes I do…very very much girlfriend.


“I really like the sound of that spence….

Ash leaned in kissing spencer on her pouty lips and pushed her tongue into her hot mouth grabbing a hold of her neck and pulled her closer to her. Before it could get to far there was a knock on spencers door. They reluctantly broke apart but chose to hold each others hand for support as Spencer told the intruder to come in.


“come in…


“the doors locked I can’t. Spence got up off the bed and opened the door only to be met with the eyes of a warmer paula.

“yes mom…

Spence stared at her mother who seemed to be different somehow, but she couldn’t put her finger on it…could it be guilt that she is seeing in her eyes. She was broke from her train of thought when paula spoke.


“Spencer, we need to talk…there is a lot of things I think I need to say to you and explain…


“okay…what is it mom?


“well honey…you weren’t the first…he raped me to…..


“oh god….





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