Present day




Tick tock tick tock tick tock…you know what that sound is, that’s the clock going in slow motion. Its torturing me for one reason and one reason only…because it can.


Ten more minutes, ten more minutes till the first day of junior year is over, ten more minutes till I get to see her again. Its only been two hours, but it feels like a lifetime. Its weird ya know cause latley I have realized that I need her more then ever. The need is growing into something more, into want, and that scares the shit out of me!

I don’t want to push her away. I just wonder if I tell her how I truly feel will she run, what am I saying, I don’t even know how I truly feel.

I know I know we flirt all the time, but that has just been going on latley, what if that is just her personality and nothing more. What if she dosent need or want me the same way I want and need her? I can’t be rejected by her, that would honestly crush me. She is a huge part of my life I can’t loose her. I just won’t worry about it, what ever happens happens….yes finally the bell, stupid clock!!
Time to find Spence.


“hey there sweet cheeks, how was the rest of your classes? Aww she is blushing again, god I could never get tired of that cute little smile and head tilt.

“um really good, by the way my last class was with Aiden and he told me to tell you hi and that he wants you to call him after practice to hang out”

Is that a hint of jealousy in spencer’s voice?

“you should have told him that I have a date and I won’t be able to hang out with him tonight”

“oh oh you have a date?

“yea I do and oh man Spence can you say HOTT! But there is only one problem”

“what’s that ash?

“I couldn’t take them to get sushi cause all she would be doing is stealing the spicy tuna off my plate, you know I don’t share Spence. Hehe

Damn I’m good…I think I have gotten her to blush 10 times today.

“haha very very funny Davies…honestly I think you missed your calling, you should have been a stand up comic.

” I know I’m funny, now get your cute little ass in my car so we can be back before practice.

“fine fine…where are we going anyway?

” you’ll see…

I start the car and guardian angel by red jumpsuit apparatus is on. That’s the song I always sing to Spencer when she crys…she just looked at me and we stared in each others eyes for a couple of intense minutes, it looks like she wants to say something, she is on the verge of tears now, and my first instict is to grab her and hold her, so I do, and I whisper in her ear

“I will never let you fall, ill stand up for you forever.

“I know ash I know.

She breaks the hug and tells me to drive.

I do and we reach the pier in no time but not without stolen glances on both of our parts the whole way there.

I put out a towel that I always keep in my car and we sit under that pier in complete silence, until I break it.

“Spence, I think I need to tell you some things. Now she is looking at me and I can tell she is scared.

“okay ash…what is it? Did I do something wrong?

“oh god no Spence, you could never do wrong in my eyes. She smiles at that comment and tilts her head and persuades me to continue.

“okay so here goes…she grabs my hand and hold it in between both of hers and squeezes.

“ash its okay, you can tell me anything.

“Spence,I um I think um

I’m a bitch I’m a mother I’m a saint I’m a sinner.

“hey sorry ash my mom is calling, I have to get this okay. Yes mother?

“Spencer I need you to be home right after practice today, we have some news its bad, but we are going to tell everyone together okay so be sure to be home on time.

” yea sure mother no problem..

She hangs up the phone..

“so you were saying ash?

She takes my hand back into hers and looks at me for my answer.

“well I just want to tell you that, ah well see its like this…I’m
ah I’m not what you think.

“ash your scaring me, please just look at me okay, whatever it is I can handle it. As much as you have been put through with me and never ran, I am stuck to you like glue, so spill.

“I ahlikeyou…

“what about a hiko, why are you talking about poems now ash really?

“not a hiko spencer, come on. I said I LIKE YOU !!

“well duh…you better like me, were best friends…oh oh um wow that’s um huh yea.

“Spence are you okay? I’m sorry I mean I can’t help how I feel.

She is shaking now and just looking out into the ocean, she hasn’t said a word to me in over 15 minutes now and I’m starting to get worried. I put my jacket around her and that’s when she finally looks at me with tears in her eyes.

“but ash I don’t deserve you, I’m not good enough for you, I’m disgusting and used, why would you like me?

“don’t you ever think that..you are perfect you deserve to be happy Spence, what happened to you is not your fault.

“I’m not so sure about that, but will you give me time ash? I just need to think, there are to many things going on up here

“yea yea of course, I’m not going anywhere I said obviously a little sad. Hey we have to get to practice now, its getting late.

“oh okay…um can I get a hug first? You know how much better your hugs make me feel.

I blush from her honesty..”sure Spence, come here.

We hug for a couple of minutes with her head resting in th crook of my neck and my head on hers, god she always smells like strawberries. I kiss the top of her head and tell her its time to go. We let go and I grab the towel and head for the car when she grabs my hand and pulls me back to her. She wants to say something and she opens her mouth too, then we hear

“hey guys your going to be late to practice..

“yea we were just leaving aid, thanks

Stupid boys man, what is he even doing here, its as if Spencer reads my mind.

“what are you even doing hEre, aren’t you suppose to be at b ball practice? She says with attitude.

“um well coach gave us an extra hour cause he had to run some errands..so here I am hehe

” well we really have to go come on spence. Bye aid

“bye guys..call me later!!

Not one word is said in the car on the way to practice. We both get out of the car and head to the locker room to get changed. The whole team is in there laughing and joking around and me and Spence just sit and stare at each other like no one else is around. Like its just me and her in this world that matter, she motions for me to come into the shower stall with her eyes. I oblige and am at a loss for words at what happens next.

“I like you to… And she crashes her lips against mine like if she didn’t do that right then she might have died, that’s how needy this kiss felt. Its like we go so perfect together, she pushes her tounge into my mouth and it feels like this is what I have been missing my whole life, is her kisses bruising my lips, I wrap my arms around her waist and her hands are pulling at my neck pushing me further into her. This feels just like a dream.. And as quickly as we came together we broke apart and she was out of that shower stall and back talking with all our teammates like nothing happened.

We practice and nothing really eventful happened during that, just working our asses off, which sucked by the way. Practice ended and we said our goodbyes.

“Spence, call me later? So we can talk.

“yea of course ash, ill call you soon okay.

And just like that she was off with glen on her way home, and I was stuck with all these worries in my head with no one to ease them until I hear from her again….what have I done?