Ashley stopped at the door of her room then turned to me, she looked ashamed to call me hers. It was the first time, since that morning, I’d felt such an accumulation of guilt and shame at the very same time. I followed her into the room, there was a giant ‘A’ on her wall, and the sight of a giant letter alone right now, was enough to make me want to hurl. "Spencer I’m so sorry" She threw herself at me hugging me and crying, mumbling stuff about waking up with a girl,an ex. I wanted to push her off of me, but what good would that do now?

"I told you how I’d changed I, and how much you meant to me, then I went and fucked up again Spencer,just like I normally do, I’m sorry" She grabbed me tighter this time, my hands were draped around her hips, fingers tapping at her studded belt. "What?" I asked stepping back a little, I knew damn well what, and though it was horrible, I figured if I made Ashley repeat what she’d done, she’d feel so bad that maybe what I did wouldn’t seem so bad. "I-I, cheated on you, with her, with the girl I said I was done with, Erin, I was so mad Spencer, but I didn’t think I would ever…" She stopped and looked at me. Probably confused as to why I was crying, because it wasn’t an "Oh, I’m so sad and heartbroken" cry it was that good ol’ "I’m a bitch, not you, please stop before my conscious kills me" cry.

"Wha-What is it?" She asked me, her tears still falling and hitting the floor beneath us. "Look, I did something, very bad,and if you keep talking about how horrible of a person you are" I had to take a pause, this whole crying thing wasn’t new to me, but the hyperventilating definitlety was "I’m going to want to kill myself". "What the hell did you do?" I was puzzled by how quick she had changed from sad and humble to furious and curious(Hah that rhymed). Just then, as I was about to begin my oh-so-sorry confession Kyla walked by,a smug grin on her face, directed at Ashley.

Ashley’s face went from Kyla to me, then back to Kyla, and eventually over to me again. "Oh please tell me you didn’t?" Her eyes were flooding,and it was build up, and the minute I let a single ‘I did’ escape my lips,that build up would come cascading down, onto her soft cheeks. "Ashley I am so-" I didn’t have time to finish, because Ashley’s emotions didn’t have time to let me finish. She’d bursted, a total mess, and I didn’t have anything to clean with.