I stood there, stuck on a high level of stupid. I was a fucking deer in bright ass head lights. She stood there as well, her face a sea of mixed emotions but the only ones i could clearly pick out were anger and most of all hurt. Probably hurt because even if I was scared of loving Spencer, or needed time away from Kyla or any of the other shit that occupied my life I know that she of all people was one I owed a thorough explanation to. Madison was my best friend, the only one I could ever really count on for days when I felt like the world was against me. If something got me down, she was right there by my side trying her best to cheer me up. When My mother died, and god bless her soul, She was the only one I felt comfortable talking about it with. I didn’t even let my own sister in as much as I did her. I remember for months after my mother passed away we stayed stuck in her room, the whole summer, with her inventing little games and things to cheer me up or get my mind off the fact that she was really gone. We would go down by the lake and sit there for hours, most of them consisting of me crying on her shoulder, but either way, whether I was crying, laughing, whatever she was there for me and I left her. I didn’t call, I didn’t write, I didn’t email and I wasn’t even sure that she knew right away that I had left. I dialed her number many times but never had the courage to actually speak to her, too afraid that she might call me on my shit and my bluff. So I shut her out, like I did everything.

We had been standing there for quite some time and she finally took her keys and papers from my hand. I still hadn’t said anything and I was starting to think I had gone mute. Madison simply put the items in her purse and began to walk away. I knew this wasn’t going to be easy and I knew she would call me out on a lot of things but I thought it best to try at least. As she proceeded to go out of the door of Starbucks I grabbed her arm and she stopped, yanking it back as if she had been burned.