As more people showed up, I got out to catch up with Angela and Ben. Angela and I had gotten closer lately, now that I was back to my almost regular self. The first bell rang and we all walked to first period Italian. I had tried Spanish last year, but it still didn't make much sense to me and what was more romantic than the Italian language? Plus, the Italian teacher wasn't too bad to look at either. He was also very helpful to everyone, which made it easier to grasp and made me confident that I would easily pass the final for the class.

The class passed quickly, as did the rest of my classes. English, History, then it was lunch. Lunch was the same as usual. I sat with Angela, Ben, Jessica, Mike, Tyler, Lauren, and Eric again. We talked about normal stuff and how excited we were for graduation. After lunch, I only had 3 more classes to make it through. Luckily, I had Home Ec in between Calculus and Gym to make a little breathing time. The rest of the day passed quickly, and I made it out of gym alive as I walked to my car to head back home. Today Jacob, Angela, and Ben were coming over for a double date. We were headed to Port Angeles for the rest of the day, so I drove him quickly, so I would have time to freshen up and change before we left, but right when I got home, that strange feeling hit me again. I tried desperately to figure out why it was so familiar, and then it hit me.

It was the same feeling I had locked away behind my mental barrier. The barrier that kept him and everything that had happened that day from flooding back in. The same barrier that kept me from having those nightmares about the day he left me in the forest. The same barrier that broke as the memories flooded back and I realized, it was the same feeling I had felt the day he left me. I grew panicked as my breathing grew quick and desperate, as I gasped for air. Trying to push everything back behind the barrier took all my power, but I still wasn't strong enough. It had come back to haunt me and there was no stopping it now.