The car ride was pretty quite. I was to afraid of saying something stupid so I kept my yap shut. I was satisfied with just stealing small glances at her during the comfortable silence. She kept fidgeting with the hem of her skirt. Wierd, it was  almost like she was nervous too. But why? I’m the one with the friendship changing confession. Finally we were there. " The fair, I love the fair Ash!! How’d you know?" Spencer’s face was lit up like a kid on Christmas. They’re was no way I was this lucky. " I’m a good guesser?" I offered. They’re really was no other good explanation. Well except maybe fate. " Come on," Spence said grabbing my hand and dragging me towards the entrance at almost a sprint. I, of course paid for our admittance, politely declining spencer’s offer to pay her way. " No way, this was my idea so I’m paying. Put your money women." Spencer laughed and stepped aside to allow me to pay. Let the fun begin.

                            We spent all day joking, laughing, and riding every ride in sight. I forced Spencer to ride the biggest rollercoaster there with me and was rewarded with her clutching my hand the whole time. I wanted to ride it again, but Spencer said she was kinda hungry.

                         After stopping for some cotton candy I asked her what she wanted to ride next. " Lets go on the ferris wheel. It’s the only ride we haven’t been on yet." I didn’t even have time to consent before she was pulling me towards it. You will control yourself Ashley, you will control yourself, you will-.The guy waved us over to a swing and closed the bar over our laps. You will control yourself, you will control yourself, you will-. Suddenly it stops at the top and you can see L.A. lit-up at night. " Wow, it’s so pretty at night," Spencer sighs taking in the scenery. She’s so angelic with the lights reflected in her eyes. Must control self. "  Yea it is," I agree not even glancing around. I can’t take my eyes off her. She finally turns to me. " Your not even looking silly." " oh, sorry," I say staring into her eyes. For some reason we couldn’t break the connection and look away from each other. Control yourself, control yours-.

                            Suddenly her lips are on mine. She’s kissing me!! Well at least now I know I have some self control. Wow her lips are so soft and… I can no longer think rationally because her lips are mashed against mine and my tongue is sliding against her bottom lip begging for entrance. Her hands are on my cheeks, while I’m tryna keep mines to myself. I don’t want to push it to far, she might snap out of it. I didn’t have to worry about that though, someone was clearing their throat in front of us.

                           The same guy who strapped us in was now standing in front of us with a perverted grin on his stupid face. Spencer jumped away from me like I had the plague, and tried her best to look everywhere, but in my direction while the guy freed us from the swing. I didn’t even feel us move. Then again I guess I was a little distracted. As soon as we were free, Spencer took off without warning, forcing me to run to catch up with her. " Spence, yo wait up. What’s wrong?" I yelled finally snagging her arm making her whirl around at my touch. " I can’t Ash, I’m sorry, but I just can’t. I’m gonna call my brother to come pick me up. I’m really sorry Ashley. That shouldn’t have happened," she said with tears starting to form in her eyes. I deflated, my arms dropped to my side and just hung there. And then she was running again. Not even a backward glance. I don’t understand. She kissed me. Why is she running away if she kissed me? I leaned on a booth next to me unable to support my weight on my shaking legs. Everything around me was a blur through my tears, to weak to even wipe away the ones running down my cheeks.

I don’t think your supposed to feel like shit after a first kiss.