As I sit in the dimmley light living room, Thoughts of her dancing through my less then sober mind and a bottle of Whiskey in hand I think back. Back to the old days.

*~*

"Oh my god, Baby, I made it. They excepted me!" She screamed leaping into my arms.

"Thats great Ash!" I exclaimed.

"I can’t beleive it, New Yorks School Of The Preforming Arts wants me, ME, Ashley Davies."

"We should celabrate" I sujested with a smile.

And we did. One would think you’d go out to celabrate, But not Ash and I. Nope, We stayed home, In bed. Over the years I have learned when Ashley’s Either one: extreamly mad, Or two: Extreamly happy is the best time to stay in bed.

*~*

A tear rolled down my cheek as I thought back to that day. Before I lost her. I took a few more swigs of the firey liquid, Inhaling deeply as it burned my raw throat.

She put him out like the burnin’ end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin’ to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night

*~*

"How could you Ashley?"

"I’m sorry Spence, I didn’t mean for this to happen, I swear."

"Screw you Ashley, Or should I say Screw her." My voice was bitter and full of hurt.

"Baby, Please." She begain rubbing my arm. But I quickly pulled back. "Come on spencer, It was a mistake."

"Do you love her?"

"No, But really do like her. I’m sorry. Its not like i planned this, It just happend. I didn’t wake up one morning and think to myself ‘Hmm…I think I’m gonna go to school in New York and meet this girl so I can break Spener, The love of my life’s heart’ "

"Four years Ashley, Four fucking years I have wasted on you. And you know what, I’m done. Done with you and done with this relationship."

*~*

As I finished off the bottle of whiskey, The room begain to spin. I knew it was all fading away, I knew I was fading away. I couldn’t see or think Straight. Everything was blurry. I grabbed a pen and paper and joutted down a few words. I’m not sure what I wrote, I couldn’t evern see the paper clearly. I colapsed onto the bed letting the raging liquid that corsed through my veins carry me away……