"And you don't think when you talk like this it doesn't hurt?" he let her go then to stand and run a hand through his hair.

"Is your life really all that much better with you here having to deal with all this because of me? I've put your family at risk so many times. I've put the school at risk because you want to protect me so badly that you had thoughts and urges to kill people that you didn't before I came around. I feel like I'm constantly hurting you with all my emotional delusions I can't seem to keep under control. I have problems." She watched him stand in the corner of the room as she talked. It would kill her to not be with him, but she hated having pulled him into everything with her crazy life. It broke her heart to hear about how he was struggling with his own emotions and cravings because of her.

"Stop it!" His yell made her jump and he placed his hands over his face and again ran them through his hair. The sight she took in next made her gasp slightly. He was actually crying. For the first time in his life since a vampire he had his own tears running down his face. He made no note of it as he tried to put all this together. "Bella, I rather go through hell and back with you by my side than to lose you and be alone again. I waited so long for you. I'm prepared to deal with what ever comes next." It was funny that when he had thoughts of leaving for the better it did not hurt him this bad. The fact she was now having the thoughts completely broke him.

"Edward…" She got up to go to him. "I just didn't want to hurt you anymore."

"Then don't say things like that." His stare was intense and he got the point across. His eyes had turned a green color sometime during his emotional turn. "I would never force you to stay with me if you were unhappy, but don't ever think that you being with me causes me pain."

"I'm sorry." She got up then to go to him much like he always had her. Thankfully he didn't refuse her and she pulled him into her embrace.

"Look what you've turned me into." He chuckled a little and sniffed, unbelieving his current actions. He had no idea how it was possible, but didn't care then. All he wanted was her touch and he got it.

She held onto him and apologized countless times for feeling so cold hearted and be blinded from the truth. "Didn't you say when you were human your eyes were green?"

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End Notes.

Took a little longer to update than normal. Work has been insane and I had to pick up a bunch of hours with no days off this week. Keeping me from writing! Are they crazy? Haha. This chapter is a little eh different, but I'm going to try something and change things up a bit I think.