I’ve never been really sure until last September whether a vampire could well and truly cry.

We had been in Alaska for the last few months, living near Tanya’s family. They were good company, but nothing lifted the mood these days. I should know.

Emmett was playing video games. He was becoming increasingly infuriated as he lost each round. It was one of those simulated wrestling matches. I watched him a minute before heading back upstairs to Alice.

She wasn’t in the bathroom when I walked in. She was lying on our bed, growling angrily.

“Another one?” I asked worriedly. She had been having some visions these last few days that left her on the floor, moaning in pain. She said that she was feeling Bella’s suffering and that she could only see more heartache for her.

She shook her head. “No. But I’m not waiting around for the next one. I’m going to Forks.”

I had the sense not to laugh. “We can’t. Edward will kill us.”

“Well, since Edward has denied us his presence, since Edward has ripped this family to pieces, since Edward has done this to Bella, I’m not of the mind that his decision is worth much at the moment.” Her voice was filled with rage each time she spat out his name. I had never seen her so angry with her brother, but I certainly felt it now. It tore me up to see Alice so angry. She was supposed to be sunny, happy. She was Alice.

It appeared she was blaming Edward. But I knew it was my fault. If I had had enough control last September… We would still be in Forks, I guessed. I frowned.

All my fault.

“Alice, let’s think this through. If you see Bella and she’s not dealing with this so well, you’re going to want to stay and help her, right?” She nodded. “And then she’ll get attached and when we have to leave again, it’ll just hurt her more. You couldn’t want to hurt Bella any more, could you?”

“I won’t say anything to her, I promise. I just want to check that she’s alright.” Alice whispered.

I sighed. “It’s too risky. And you know perfectly well that she won’t be all right. She’s Bella.”