She did come down stairs eventually; she joined us on the couch and fell asleep again. Bella and me sat there with them for…God knows how long. All I know is that at some point Bella fell asleep, too. At around 8:00pm I decided to put them in bed. I took Antoinette first; I laid her in her crib and covered her with the pink blanket in the crib. I kissed her forehead and went back down stairs to Rora. I tucked her in, but I didn’t go back downstairs yet. I watched her from the doorway. Just watched her sleep, she was my baby girl, I could care less if I wasn’t her biological father. She was mine, mine and Bella’s. I felt warm arms go around my waist; I turned to look at my Bella. I put my arm around her and we stood there together and watched our daughter sleep.

JJJ

Bella POV:

            It was Monday morning. We had to go to the doctor’s again. I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to take much more of this, watching her suffer like that. Edward was going with us again, I hadn’t needed to ask, he already knew I wanted him there. We’d had to get up 8:00. I made Rora breakfast and Edward fed Antoinette.

Edward had insisted on driving…again. I’m not sure if he didn’t trust my driving or something, but he never let me drive anywhere. Anytime we went anywhere he had to drive. Maybe it was a vampire thing. We had had a chance to talk about things. He explained to the best of his abilities. Some of the things had blown me away. Like how vampires didn’t need to breathe, or how they couldn’t sleep. But, I wasn’t scared of him, or what he was. I knew he wouldn’t hurt me. I trusted him more than I had ever trusted anyone, more than I had ever allowed my self to trust anyone.

Aurora wasn’t a morning person lately, and me and Antoinette never had been. And, of course, Edward didn’t need to sleep. Therefore, both the girls fell asleep on the way there. I was dreading it. I didn’t want to watch her scream in pain. No mother should have to watch that. But just because no mother should, doesn’t mean they didn’t. I did, I had to watch that. The girls didn’t wake up when we got them out of the car. They didn’t wake up until we were in the examination room. Aurora looked around groggy, when she realized where we were she started screaming, “MOMMY! NO! I DON’T WANNA! MOMMY PLEASE!” she started sobbing. I couldn’t take this. I could feel my eyes tearing up. Edward took her from me; I took Antoinette outside and tried not to breakdown in the middle of the lobby. I was failing horribly. I sank down to the floor and sobbed my heart out. I held Antoinette to me, praying desperately that I could forgive myself for walking out on my baby girl.