“I must convince her… I sow how she looks at me she still has feelings for me… I’m sure”

Sam’s mobile start talking “you have a message”, “you have a message”

“It’s funny” Cat thinks “Maybe I could… no I can’t… and if she suddenly enter the office …”

 “Once she answered my mobile in place of me” tries to convince herself  taking the mobile and opening the message

“Hi darling. I’ll wait you for dinner, don’t be late remember it’s a special evening. Kate XXX”

Cat is struck down “I can’t believe… I can’t believe” and silently begins to cry.

When Sam enter into the office finds Cat sits on a chair sobbing, the face into her hands.

“What’s wrong?” Sam’s first instinct is to hug Cat “No I can’t; if I do it once I’ll never be able to detach myself from her”.

“Cat what’s happen?”

“Why don’t you tell me?”

“What?”

“This!” and with all the anger she feels Cat throw the mobile at Sam. The cop by instinct covers her face with the hands a moment before being struck.

“Are you mental?… My mobile?… What are you doing with it?”

“I have read the message of your new girlfriend”

“What? Listen…”

“I wonder how many laughs you’ll get tonight, thinking of poor, silly Cat chasing you all the day begging for a crumb of attention. Oh God, how I could be so stupid to think that we could make a fresh new start, that you want me again… when you have Kate …now”.

“Have you finished?” Sam face is like marble, her eyes as ice, the slight smile vanished.

“I haven’t a girlfriend, Kate is my sister do you remember? And yet you had no right to read my messages”

“Oh my God Sam forgive me please….”

“Again? I have a lot of things to forgive you, don’t you?”  Sam’s voice is sharp as a blade.

Cat is broken; even now just as at the phone everything seems to fall to pieces.

She got up in the morning convinced it was the right day to convince Sam how much she loved her and how she wanted to come back to her.

Only now she realize how impossible this dream is.

She looks her ex girlfriend and she sees … a foreign.

Her eyes so playful are now two pieces of ice; her lips that made her mad so many times…tighten.

Her arms not ready to hug her, but close to her chest.

Now she finally understand: Sam had believed in their relationship more than Cat and her betrayal had hurt her deeply. For this she would never forgive her….whatever she said or did.

“Well, excuse me, back to your work; I’m leaving.”

Sam looks at the only woman who ever loved so hard throughout her life; she is motionless as seeing Cat so painful doesn’t touch her at all, but inside her there is only chaos.

From her heart a voice is screaming “Stop it! Doesn’t make her go away for ever! Hug her. Tell her you loves her. Back to life!”.

But in Sam the rational side has always prevailed and currently the brain sorts

“Don’t move! She betrayed once and she will do again. Be strong; the pain will be pass; with time you forget everything.”

Cat gets up, she doesn’t even has the strength to look at Sam, opens the door and goes.

As soon as the door closes Sam feels a terrible pain inside her;  she gasps and begin to knock her head against the wall, repeating as a litany “Why…. Why”.

And suddenly she howl with anger and hopelessness; breaks away from wall, opens the door and bumps against Ryder

“What’s happens? Are you ok?” He asks

“I have to go… I’ll explain you later”

And without waiting for an answer Sam runs out the police station.

On the door she looks around and around; at the beginning she can’t see Cat anywhere but at one point a smile lights up her face “Cat….Cat”.