Dearest Tee,

By the time you are reading this, I guess Im not around anymore. I would probably be in *****? Thats the place monsters should go, I think. Call me a coward Im probably one.
My whole life fucked. The only meaning in my life was the 7 years I have spent with you. And I got it all messed up.?! I keep replaying it over and over again, trying to figure out the exact moment where I could have stop myself. That day at your lawyers office, I was tormented when you hesitated to answer if you still love me. I died when you wanted a final separation. I know I have caused you agony. And to tell the truth, I actually used to blame everyone for that. I loathed Alice for separating us. I hated the whole gang for turning their backs against me and I even despised your attorney for fighting your autonomy After so long and so much, I then came to realize that I have only myself to blame. I am the cause of it, I will have to end it. Im leaving behind all my assets to you. You can have our house, the car and all my savings. I know all these cannot compensate all the pains I have given you. but I guess this is the only thing I can do for you now. I hope you find the love of your life. I sincerely wish you happiness and that you and your new love would forever spare each other pain. I know I have said this a thousand times, but I guess this would be the last time I am sorry, I really am. I love you.


Yours heartbreaker,
Bette P.


Romance gives me pain, I think I’ll never love again.
My heart is a prisoner to fate;
The woman I love refuses to acknowledge how I feel,
And I find it too painful to relate.
Once upon a time, my head was light, my footsteps sure,
And every fateful bystander my friend.
Now I find it hard to walk upright, and what is more,
Her ignorance contributes to my end.
Ah! bitter are the dregs of life, the better not to drink,
To drown myself in pity still the best.
So I say goodbye to she who might have been my wife, I think,
And rush myself to my eternal rest.