Ashley continues with the show with out looking at me once. when her last song ends she walks off the stage. I know that kiss hurt her and as much as I dont want to, I regret doing it. I keep thinking about what Kyla told me eairler, should I go back and talk to Ash or not? is the question that keeps replaying in my mind. I grab Jessie’s hand and get up to leave. as were walking out of the venue we pass by the backstage entrance and I make my decision.

"hey Jess can you wait here for a minute?, I’ll be right back"

"uh… sure. where you going baby?"

" um just to go talk to an old friend I’ll be right back."

"oh ok."

I walk up to the door and start to go in but Im stoped by a big guy wearing all black.

"um excuse me miss but do you have a pass?"

Shit I forgot you have to have a pass to get backstage at these kinds of things. Shit!

"oh umm…. no but im an old friend of Ashleys"

"Im sorry but no pass, no enterance"

Fucking stupid ass Steriod!

"uhhh… ok. well if you see Ashley will you tell her Im sorry?, my name is Spencer Carlin."

"wait your Spencer Carlin?"

huh he knows who I am?… he so doesn’t seem like a gossip girl fan.

"yeah….?"

"Im so sorry miss Carlin right this way. I’ll take you right to miss Davies dressing room."

Ok that was weird.

he leads me through the door and through a long hallway until we reach a black door with "A. Davies" written across it.

"here we are miss carlin, would you like me to get miss Davies for you?"

"no thank you i’d rather knock myself."

"yes of course, well if there is anything you need, anything at all miss Carlin. just let me know, my name is Rosco."

Rosco? ha ha ha wooooow!

"thank you Rosco"

he walks away and Im alone in front of Ashleys dressing room debating weather I should knock or just walk away.

I mean does she even want to see me after that kiss?

I move my fist up to knock but am interupted by a skanky blonde with big boobs.