Spencers POV

we were millimeters apart when….. "spence i can’t" she said letting me down back into the water.

"what? why? did i do something wrong?" i mean what did i do? i don’t recall anything.

"no no no its not you its me" she had a very sad look on her face as she started to walk back to shore.

"tell me what it is!" i demanded. she stopped. i know i sounded desperate and maybe i was but still i needed to know why she just rejected me like that i mean i really really REALLY like her but i don’t get it 

"you deserve better" she said just above a whisper. "thats what you don’t understand about me i WANT you, not some other girl off the street i want THE ashley davies standing in front of me." i said sternly

"i don’t want to hurt you, lets go home." she turned and kept walking. i was persay confused a bit. why would she hurt me? because of her past?

i avoided talking to her until we got to my house.

"i’ll see you tomorrow maybe" she said as i reached for the handle. "what ever" i said sarcastically and left her sitting in her car.

 Ashley’s POV

so spencer just left. it hurts me to know she’s mad but i really don’t want to hurt her i mean i really like her and all but my reputation tells me i’m not allowed to be serious. i want to be but i’m scared, i’m scared that i’ll leave her or…she’ll leave me. either way it hurts. if i did accept her kiss then we’d get together and i’d probably follow my motto and then leave her or i’ll fall in love with her and she’ll find out about the past and leave me. and if i follow the path i’m on she’ll probably disown me, which isn’t good either. maybe theres no way out. maybe…god hates me, does he want me to live like this? without the one i truly like?  

i decide to do i what i do most when i have problems….drink it off.