Mom wont even look at me , I tried to clean the house as fast as i could. I can never make her happy. Thats Probably why she doesnt love me . Dad wont say anything to her about it sadly. Thats why i love it when mommys not at home because its just me and daddy. Or i love being at school. Because im with ashley… I know im very young to some people. but i will be 8 this fall. I dont think im young . Everyone calls me a little girl. I love school. Im free there.

Reading and Drawing are my life. Without those i dont tihnk i would be able to get up in the morning. As a matter of fact i read this book like a few days ago call The Boy Called It. It was very sad and horrible. Mommy is mean to me but never hits me. Shes tried But thats where daddy makes her stop. Thank God for him . Im on my way to school and i tihnk im the only one who enjoys it. I see ashley and my smile never leaves , shes my bestfriend since i can remember.

" Hey Spencey! i missed you this weekend ! " shes just looked at me and smiled that million dollar smile and hugged me. " i know i missed you too Ashey, !" she looked at me then at the clock above the cafeteria "woah spence your here early, lets go play four square! " And what she said is exactly what we did till school. Im happy were in the same grade . She lives a few houses down from me but i never see her outside of school. If i look out my room window i can see her room window. So i guess you can say she lives down the corner? well anyways not far. I hope we stay friends Forever…

5:30…

I think mommy forgot about me again. And daddy isnt home yet. I think i should wait here. I hate when this happens. Its so lonely and i dont have anything to read and my scetch book is at home. "SPENCEYYYYY!!" i hear her … i turn and there she is waving running towards me " Spence why are you still here? " " my mom is running late . Why Are You here?? " she just shruggs. aNd sits next to me we talk about nothing and everything at the same time.

‘spencey…" "yea?" i look at her and shes stareing up from the sidewalk. " promise me that no matter what happens we’re friends forever…" she isnt looking at me still " ashley i wouldnt want it any other way…"  she sits up as do i . And she just huggs me and whispers in my ear "spenceyyy i love you" then i hear my daddy honk and we get up and she runs the oppisite direction. "your friend doesnt want a ride hunny?" i look at the spot where she was and smile " i  guess not daddy… i guess not "

Home….

When we get home mommy is asleep on the couch and daddy just looks at me and asks if im hungry. "no but daddy, What do i do to make mommy hate me? " "sweetie your momma doesnt hate you … " was all he said and walked away. I went to my room and just colored till the next day where i could see ashley again. Before i go to bed daddy comes and kisses me goodnight. And we pray. Then as daddy says im off to dream land….

Next Day At School…

Ashley got here late today so i havent talked to her but lunch is soon…

"spencey… I need to talk to you. " she looks nervous shes biting her nails again . i look at her and smile while we go over to the trees and sit there togather shoulder to shoulder. "spencey when i hugg you do you get this weird feeling…? i look at her and just shrugg. " spencer…" i look at her and she kisses me for a good second. Then says something about thats not how it happened in the movie. To tell you the truth i wasnt listening. I was in total and complete shock.

That day was a day i wil never forget. For the rest of that week we acted like that never happened . It never did come up we just went along with our business like always. but i remeber it forever and ever…

9 Years Later…

TBC…..