I cant belive that after all these years this is where I end up. I never would have expected this if you would have told me this is how things were gunna go 3 years ago I would have probably laughed at you and flipped you off.I hear my name called and I look up at an older lady with a microphone. she smiles at me and says its my turn. I feel like Im going to through up… and this time its not from the burning liquid that is usually the cause. I look down at my hands and take a deep breath. "one step at a time" I wisper to myself. then I stand up from my seat and take the mic from her with a slight nod. she smiles and takes a seat. I look around the room and all eyes are on me. I start to shake and the familure need comes back I shift from foot to foot and then I feel someones hand on my back and a whisper in my ear. "come on spence you dont need it, I know you can do this." I look over and instantly forget about my addiction and get lost in those beautiful brown eyes, a sense of relaxation washes over me and Im suddenly very calm. I smile at my savior and she gives me a wink before moving closer until her lips brush my cheak in a gentel kiss then she moves to my ear and whispers. " the first step is admitting you have a problem." I look down at the floor and close my eyes. "you can do it beautiful" she says and then goes to take a seat. I look up and around the room once again this time with confidence. I bring the mic up to my mouth take a deep breath and say " hello everyone. My name is Spencer Marie Carlin and I am an alcoholic."