Previously in ”Time to stop”:

The car ride was silent, I just hold her hand, her head on my shoulder. When we got into her driveway, we look at each other for what felt like an eternity, feeling the fear in each others eyes.

 In the Carlin’s house:

When we entered the room, my dad was carrying suitcases, he’s not leaving, no he can’t. I didn’t really realise I was still holding hands with Ashley.

The sweet moment we had didn’t last long though….

She looked at me like she was going to burn me with her eyes, even with this evil side of her, I couldn’t bring myself to not hug her, like a last hug before a long time.

And with that said, she walked away to her cab, to drove off to who knows where. But I couldn’t help to feel a little bad, I mean she was my mother! Ash felt it and took me into a tight embrace.

So we went upstairs to Spencer’s bedroom. I have to say she really seemed better, well she does have her home and family back, I guess! But I haven’t quite left the ‘I have no one’ sentence in my head, usually I just drop it I mean, I know nobody cares about me, but I didn’t want to be like that anymore… Okay who am I kidding? I still wanna be like that, just not with Spence but with anyone  else I’m not going to be all sensitive in one day, .

She was sitting on her bed, and I was just walking around her room.

After things worked out, for the moment anyway and after a little jenga with her dad yeah I know, family’s evenings! Plus he seemed so sad, he suggested I spend the night and of course I wasn’t going to say no, so we got ready and went into bed. We weren’t doing anything, just laying on our backs, looking at the ceiling, but I wanted to kiss her, touch her so bad.

I didn’t need any other answer! First I put a gentle kiss on her soft lips, then the kiss deepened… I was teasing her pulling away begging for her to make a move on me, her tongue asking to explore my mouth as she licked my lower lip, and who was I to deny her that, so I let her enter. It was so special each time it would send me a shiver through my whole body. The kiss was passionate, intense, her hands were all over my body, even on my ass, which was a little unexpected from Spencer but I liked it! I pulled away, both looking in each others eyes, she pulled my shirt over my head, staring at my really small bra if you know what I mean. Letting out a little glup.

 – Is this okay? I asked her concerned.

 – Yes… perfect.

So we were going on with our kissing leading to a make out session, her hands were so soft and all over my body. Her nails hurting my back in pleasure as I was kissing her neck, biting her neck! Her breath on my shoulder when I was making my way down was driving me crazy. I was going to take her shirt off as well when…

I just nodded and she undid my bra, my upper body totally exposed, I was vulnerable.

 – You’re the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. She said with a huge smile.

 – Sorry to ruin the moment Spence, but I’m your first, so I have to be! We both laughed at that, staring into each others eyes again this time with more lust, passion, envy.

She pushed me gently on her side, to take charge and be on top of me, she took her shirt off herself Oh my god, her stomach, I wanted to bite it! I wanted to bite every single piece of bare skin! Kissing it, touching it and judging by what I had experimented on her neck, she really tastes good. She started kissing me again, her delicate tongue touching mine, doing this roll thing I like so much and which is driving me insane. My hands were on her back, then on her bra… I try to find permission in her eyes, she just smiled at me, I undid it, showing the most beautiful breast in the world, perfectly shaped.

As we made out again, I was totally lost into Spencer, her eyes, blue eyes. I couldn’t control myself anymore, caressing her tigh, up and down, but mostly up, teasing her, as I was kissing her neck. My knee was between her legs, I thrust it a little so I heard her moan. She took my hand leading it to her center when…

 – Spencer…. Ashley… someone’s here to see you! Mr. C. yelled. Okay, it was only 10 p.m. but who comes visit at this time of the evening! God! There is such a bad timing with the Carlins!