Previously in "Time to stop":

– Ash… I want you… I want to touch you, I want to kiss you, to feel you, I’m going insane since the first day I met you….

Still in the room:

And with that said, she began to undressed herself, I would have stop her yeah really I would! But she had her legs at each of my sides, so I just couldn’t do anything else than watch her do her strip tease, but seriously I was trying to not enjoy the event too much!

And when she was about to undo her bra… she passed out on me, she was laying down on me, I was shocked! And at this point I was a little hurt too because she fell like a dead weight on me. I pushed her to let her roll on the bed. I took her jeans’ skirt off, she was just in boxers and bra, I put her under the sheets, kissing her forehead. She looks so beautiful…

Then I walked round the room, I was putting the bottles of vodka in the trash, then I heard something. I looked over at Spencer… she was crying silently thinking I wouldn’t hear her I guess….

I was looking at her picking up the trash I left with the vodka. I could see it in her eyes… hurt…disappointment; I buried my head in the sheets wishing she wouldn’t hear me cry…

 – Spence… what is it?

 – I’m so …sniff… sorry ash…

 – Shhh, it’s okay come here…

She put herself under the sheets with me, hugging me like she would never let me go, I put my head on her stomach, hoping she wouldn’t hate me after tonight.

I looked over to see her face, I could see a tear on her cheek. I left her chin up, to look into her eyes. I wiped her tear away with my thumb and

 – Stop ash, listen to me, I’ve never had a better friend than you I kissed her left cheek first you are the most amazing person I’ve ever met then I kissed her right cheek and I will never ever love anyone the way I love you.

 – Spenc-

 – Shhh, you don’t have to tell me anything, I know you’re not ready to say it, and I know it’s gonna be difficult for you. I was gonna kiss her lips.